Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Not feeling very graceful.

So the other day I was playing on Careerbuilder and uploaded my recent resume. I expected nothing from it. To my surprise I have been getting calls almost daily offering interviews. I find this very frustrating. I feel as if mentally I am back to my functional level. I want to work but my body doesnt want to cooperate. Since June I have been experiencing what the Dr's are calling involuntary movements. My muscles go rigid, almost spasming. I saw a neurologist. He says it's "just" anxiety. Beyond the "spasms" I have been having increasingly worse muscle pain, stiffness, kind of a achey flu feeling along with being down right exhausted all the time. I shared this with a friend and he mentioned Fibromyalgia. I didn't give it much thought until I started noticing commercials for a drug called Lyrica which treats fibromyalgia. The woman in the commercial pretty much explained what was happening with me so I went and saw my PCP today. He agrees that I could be suffering from it and wrote me a script for Lyrica. (usually he would have given samples but he didnt have any.) So I have my diagnoses and a slip of paper for a very expensive medication that could possibly help me, however I havent the economic ability to get the meds. In case you havent noticed this is a bit of a rant and I apologize. I just find it extremely frustrating that I finally am getting answers and just might have the solution in hand but because it is a brand name the drug company isnt really making it available to the peoople unless you have a JOB and INSURANCE to pay for it. If I had the medication I could get a JOB and INSURANCE which is really what it all boils down to. I want to work but everywhere I turn there is another brick in the wall blocking my way to true independence. So my next step is to go to Pfizer and ask for help. Who knows how long that will take.

4 comments:

SuperJ said...

Vicky, Try talking to your local pharmacies, they might have some sort of financial assistance programs. Jess

sQuish8 said...

Thanks, I have but thanks.

mountainrunnermike said...

Vicky,
Just wanted to drop a short line and let you kow that you are in my prayers. I ahve always ben so proud to be your brother.
You are definatley such a strong person.
You are a beautiful girl and are so talented.
Keep strong thru this challenge.
Remember I love you and have you in my prayers.
MRM

Lori Villarreal said...

Vicky,

I dont know if you remember me but I am Vickie's sister. I also Struggle with fybromyalga and one thing I have found that helps is to make yourself get up and walk. My Rheumatologist kept telling me this would help and it took quite a while for me to try. But every morning I get up and walk. It really helps. I still hurt but not as bad.